So the news broke today, out of the blue: Kim Woo Bin’s been dating model Yoo Ji Ahn for the last two years.

!!!!!

Woah.

That came sorta out of the blue, didn’t it??

As a fangirl with a sizable crush on Kim Woo Bin, I hafta say, this sudden piece of news has given me pause for thought. I’m surprised, really, at the unexpected emotions, even though my logical side is coping well.

All I can say at this point is, I’m.. processing.

You know the great thing about blogging about your k-loves?

Practically everybody in the dramaverse seems to know about it (ok, maybe not everybody, but sometimes it feels like it), and therefore, all your friends come eagerly and very efficiently bearing any kind of news tidbits related to your k-loves.

Most of the time, it’s delicious little tidbits, like the various interview clips and articles that get shared on a regular basis on my Gong Yoo post and my Jang Hyuk post. Very much appreciated, especially given the reclusiveness of said k-loves.

Sometimes, though, the news isn’t quite of the expected variety. Like today.

So today was just another regular day. I’d just had lunch, and returned to my laptop, ready to get back to whatever it was that I was doing before. [See? I can’t even remember what it was that I was doing >.<]

And then I saw it. The first hint that things were.. about to change.

My friend pinkblossom had tweeted me, and this is what she said:

I had no clue that this was rooted in any kind of reality, and thought that pinkblossom was being her usual very cute self, commiserating with me coz Woobie was holding hands with another girl. Tickled, I replied:

And THEN, I noticed that my friend snow_white had left me a message on my King of Dramas review which said:

Ok. Woah. That’s when my fingers googled faster than they’d ever googled before, and found evidence to prove that the news was indeed true and very true.

Kim Woo Bin is indeed dating a fashion model. And not only that, they’ve been in a relationship for about 2 years now. The chemistry in that photoshoot was actually all real.

I quickly sent pinkblossom an updated message:

And I also had a quick conversation with snow_white:

And honestly, that’s my official stand on the whole issue of Woobie – and all celebs in general too, for that matter – dating.

I mean, ok, if a celeb prefers to date quietly, that’s perfectly fine and good, if it’s for reasons like protecting their privacy. But if it’s to preserve the illusion of their “availability” to their fans, then I think that’s really rather unhealthy and unwise, even.

That’s how we end up having secret marriages, furtive pregnancies and hidden children. Which, honestly, isn’t at all fair or healthy for any of the parties involved, right?

So, in principle, I say, props to Woobie for being ballsy and matter-of-fact about his relationship. I am a little proud of him, even.

Thanks, too, to pinkblossom & snow_white, for pointing me towards the news. As blindsided as I was, I’d rather know than not. So really, really. Thanks, you guys. ❤

Then what’s the problem, you ask?

Well.. While my logical side is quick to adapt, my emotional side is still.. adjusting.

To put it dramatically, it feels as if my heart just took a bit of a bullet.

Ow.

I didn’t see this news coming at all, to be honest. Although, why I didn’t see it coming is hard to answer. I mean, Woobie’s completely hawt, right? And he’s already got a reputation for being the open, affectionate sort.

So, I’m not at all surprised, actually, that he’s so matter-of-fact about going public with his relationship.

At the same time, I’m completely taken aback that now, when I look at him gazing out of my phone or out of the various rotating banners on the blog, the feeling is rather.. different.

Now, instead of immediate swoon or squee, the emotion that pushes to the forefront is a touch of wistfulness. Sniff.

Something’s changed, and I can’t explain it. Coz this hasn’t quite happened to me before. I mean, I continue to nurse my Jang Hyuk crush happily and blithely, and the fact that he’s married doesn’t make a difference at all.

In Woobie’s case, is it because he was supposedly single when my crush emerged? Or is it because in my dreams, he’d actually felt so accessible and close, appearing more than once as my boyfriend, and now that dream notion’s been effectively real-life crushed?

I really don’t know. Maybe I’m just processing and adjusting and soon all will be well in the world again.

Is it enough of a shock for me to actually take Woobie off phone wallpaper duty, or off header duty on the blog? Well, no.

As I type this, he’s still smiling at me out of my phone, and still gazing at me with fiercely schmexy eyes out of my blog banner. Ok, several of my blog banners.

And I’m listening to this post’s featured song, Clazziquai Project’s Tattoo, on repeat. Mostly for these words in the chorus:

I can’t ever let you go my baby
Every night I dream of you honey

Coz even though I’m still adjusting, in the end, I really don’t think this news is going to make a meaningful dent in my Woobie love.

And coz regardless of what’s goin’ on in Real Life, in my dreamscape, I still like to think that Woobie’s always going to be all mine. ❤

After all, a fangirl’s allowed to dream, right?